When Gabe and I were living in Provo we each had our own responsibilities to take care of during the day, he had school, I had work. And as soon as our responsibilities were taken care of for the day we loved to just relax and hang out together at home. It became very hard to get out of the house and do anything after about 4:00. If I had any errands to run during the week, I would get them done right after I got off work and then rush home to hang out with Gabe. It was a great way to end every day. The time we spent at home together became such a necessity for us and I started to strongly associate being at home with Gabe as relax time.
Well, this takes us to today. The first week out here Gabe was working really long hours every day, 12-15 hours. And I had so much time on my hands I didn’t know what to do. Now that things are all settled and organized, we get to enjoy the beauty of this job, almost an unlimited amount of time together. This was one of the main reasons that we wanted to come out for the summer. I have all the time in the world to do whatever I want to do. I love baking. I would love to get better at cooking. I love fashion and would like to pursue that more. I love health and fitness and would like to develop better habits. I love painting and would like to expand my etsy shop. I love my religion and would like to build on my testimony. I love the outdoors and new places and would like to spend more time exploring and site seeing. I love reading and would like to read more books.
But I have become unmotivated. Whenever Gabe isn’t out working, I just want to embrace the time we have as a young married couple and take advantage of every minute. But even after he leaves for work, I still sit around and “relax.” The sun sets and I’m getting ready for bed and I look back on my day and I feel so unproductive. I love the fact that we are so blessed to have all this time to get to know each other better and I wouldn’t trade it for anything. But I also should realize that I can still do things while Gabe is home and still be spending time with him. I am becoming a dull person and I would really like to develop my personality more. I saw this on someone’s blog yesterday and it was exactly what I need to help balance my time better.
I think this will help a lot. Lets give it a shot!
Hahaha....I feel exactly the same way about how I'm spending my time too. It's hard to not have a job and have endless hours to do...well...nothing :). I'll try to be more motivated too, good luck :)
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