3 Weeks

This week has gone by pretty fast and Owen grows more and more every day. We had a rough start to the week this week. Owen had his first big growth spurt and he decided that he needed to eat every 1-2 hours for a couple days. I would wake up, feed him, change his diaper, and rock him back to sleep which would take like 40 minutes, then I pump, and by the time I go to lay back down he was ready for another feeding. He was pretty fussy during this time, which is understandable because I am sure it was a pretty uncomfortable time for him. I ended up getting real sick from not getting any sleep so it was especially hard to get through those couple days.

He has learned how to use his vocal cords. Thankfully he usually only cries real loud when he gets changed or when he is ready to eat. He has a cute cry, but it's still sad to see him like that. I had some Dr. Pepper at dinner last night and I don't think he can process caffeine very well. Poor guy, he was up for hours on end and he just couldn't go to sleep, no matter what I tried. I went to go give him another bottle to see if he was hungry again and I ended up spilling the whole thing all over our bed as I went to give it to him because I forgot to screw a lid on the bottle. It was at that point that I realized I needed to get some sleep and enlisted Gabe's help to watch him while I rested. Luckily he didn't have work today so he was able to get up and help. Thanks Gabe!

He makes a lot of noises while he is sleeping or laying there. He wakes up a while before his next feeding and just keeps his eyes closed and wiggles and squeals. I think next week we will move him to his crib because it wakes me up every time he makes a noise, and all the sleep I can get would be wonderful.
He is such a strong boy and always busts out of his swaddles. I went and bought him one of those swaddle wraps that are velcroed around him so he can't squirm out. It has been helpful for the most part, he seems to like it because then he doesn't accidentally smack himself in the face when he is waking up. But... sometimes he finds a little hole where the top meets the bottom and he sticks his hand out and then tries to get his hand up to his face which bunches all the fabric up around him. So we have to keep an eye on it, but he looks super cute all bundled up in it.

I feel like three weeks is when I FINALLY started to get the hang of things. I'll be honest, it was a super hard transition for me. I really thought before Owen was born that it would be so easy to still do everything I was able to do before he was born. I thought that I would have no problem finding time to cook, clean, eat, shower. I figured that babies sleep all the time, and I just had a very superficial view of how easy things would be. But it turned out to be a lot more challenging than I expected. I have no idea what I am doing, I'm a first time mom. I do my best and I learn more and more every day. I am learning what he likes and doesn't like, and how to balance everything in my life. I would say that I am some what of a perfectionist. I like to be good at the things that I do. I like things to be done a certain way. It has been very humbling to realize that I can't always control things and it is perfectly fine. There are more important things happening right now, and that is what I should focus on. Thankfully we have a very sweet boy who is learning as well and is very forgiving with me. I haven't figured out how to get ready and dressed every day, or how to get the dishes done without worrying so much about waking him up, but it will come eventually. We are so incredibly blessed to have Owen in our family and he has brought so much love and the spirit into our home. He is the cutest boy we have ever seen and has quite the personality, which will be fun to see come out as he gets older. We sure love this boy and couldn't be happier!